Jerry Maguire...

First of all let me say, I am posting this on myspace and on my blog in hopes that you all will see and read this and that your hearts will be convicted as mine has about how we now, at times, treat what we do. I also pray that you as fans and good friends will keep us in your prayers and encourage us to keep searching and striving to do God's will alone and none of ours. Also, and most importantly, do not take anything that is written below as a sign and or meaning that we as One Way are breaking up or anything of the such. WE ARE NOT BREAKING UP. So, with that being said, let's begin.

Lazy, lack of dedication, lacking...these are just a few of the words that one of my fellow bandmates used to describe us as a band recently. The more that I've thought about it, the more troubled I have become by these ideas. I would like to say that they are only accusations but to be just that, we would have to be innocent. The truth is that we probably...well, we are those things. We have always been lazy in the business end of the ministry. Partly because we don't know how to do it correctly and partly because we don't want to learn. Why we don't want to learn is beyond me. There are questions that I just don't know the answer to. I believe that maybe part of the reason that we won't learn and get out there and do it is because we are scared. I will further address that later. We have toyed with the idea of getting incorporated for some time now, over a year and still nothing has been accomplished. Some of us wait for others to motivate us, some feel they need permission to do things, and others do not care. Where are we? What are we doing?
At one point in time, there was a common goal among all of the members of One Way to push and to go as far as we could as hard as we could. We knew that God had placed a desire in our hearts and that he had blessed us with amazing talents that others would love to have. Yet, for some reason he chose us to be the bearers of these weapons of worship. Years ago, we would have loved to play as much as we do know and there are many, many bands out there right now that would love to play as much as we do, because they do not. I feel as though we are like the spoiled child that when he finally gets what he wants, he no longer wants it but longs to be free from that toy so he can move onto another one. We should be ashamed. Yes, it does get hard playing the same songs over and over and it seems as though at times the people aren't caring about what we are trying to do, but recently I have asked myself this question, "Is it their fault or ours?" I am of the opinion that it does go both ways but our attitudes of worship and of playing have changed so much in the past year and a half that at times I am ashamed to get up to play before the Father. Now, it seems that more often than not, we view what we do as a job and not a privledge and an honor. It is no doubt that God should strip from us our talents if we keep on in sin and abusing his gifts the way that we do.
We are all getting older and coming to points in our lives to where we have to make decisions about our future and the future of our families. I know that we have to provide for our families and do for them the best that we can. Before any of us got girlfriends or the possibility of wives, I know that we all prayed for women of God that would be supportive of our ministry and supportive of our decions no matter what the cost of them. I feel that all of our significant others would encourage us and want us to follow our dreams and the desires of our hearts before settling into some nine to five job and leaving those hopes and dreams high and dry. All of us are tired of school and want to get out just as quickly as possible, but I have to ask, "Has the reason for wanting to get out changed?" At one time, we all wanted to get out as quickly as we could so we could pursue our music careers with everything that we had. I'm not sure that is the case anymore. I am just as guilty of this for going to class this summer and making the band unavailable for camps and the like. Is this wrong? I'm not sure. But I do feel bad about it and it is not something that I wanted to do. At one point in time, band took priority over all other things, school, family, work, and any other thing that you could think of. Classes were skipped, family vacations and reunions missed, work missed and an endless list of other things all took back seat to the one thing that mattered most to us...God's ministry and God's music. However, I think that the reason that we are more comfortable with the abuse of those is now we look at it as...our ministry and our music.
If you have read this, you now know exactly the things that are on our hearts in One Way. We are all struggling with where we are and with what God wants us to do. Once again, please do not take this to mean that we are breaking up or anything of the such. We are NOT. I will ask that you pray with and for us and we try to seek God's face and his direction for us as a ministry, band, and individuals.