My turn now...

"I will believe it when I see a piece of paper that says you are graduating". These are the words that I hear from my dear ole dad when I tell he and my mom that I will finally be graduating in the Spring of 2006. I have been in school now for five years and this will be my sixth. Most people have a masters degree after going to school that long. This is extremely sad, yes? When a good friend of mine graduated a year or so ago, he became very upset over the fact that he was now in the "real world" and had to be an "adult". I didn't exactly understand his trouble. I had a job, why couldn't he find one? And what exactly was the big deal about getting a job and being out of school? Shouldn't it be great to not have to go?
Well, I am starting to get a taste of what my friend was feeling and if this feeling in my gut is correct as usual then that taste will do nothing but get worse. Right now, I have an excellent job. I work at a steel company (haha..how ironic) and it's a good office job that pays well. Thanks to my God, I have been able to do well here and fit in well with the people. My supervisor and big boss have talked with me about the possibility of trying to find something permanent for me here when I graduate. This should be great. Right?
Here's the delima. Like my friend, I am in a worship band that is doing better than ever and I can feel God's presence in our ministry like never before. I love every aspect of the music ministry. It has been my dream to sing and play professionally as long as I can remember. If I were to graduate and get offered this full time job, then there would be times that I wouldn't just be able to take off for band stuff. If I turned down the full time job, then I could possibly lose my part time job aswell. However, I would be chasing my dream and fulfilling the life of a starving musician. So, do I take one road and try to prepare for my family and my future or do I take the other and chase my dream. All of my heart wants to chase my dream. Like Broussard said, "If you don't chase your dream, then someone else will." At the same time, I feel the responsibility of providing for my family. I know that God will always provide for me and my family and our ministry as long as we are giving him the glory and doing things right. Perhaps it really is nothing at all to worry about.
I feel like God is about to do something big in our ministry and make all of these decisions so much easier for us. But I feel like that first step into full time ministry is going to be a rather significant leap of faith. I'm scared...can a hero be scared? ...See you in the clouds...