The mysterious bluhs...

Bluh (pronounced like it's spelled) : The weird feeling when you don't feel joyous, yet not sad
and you feel gross in a clean sort of way.

So, that's me at this point in time. I have the Mysterious Bluhs. I'm not sad, not at all. I'm just plain I guess you might say. It's fun hanging out with everyone, which is cool. Things are great and I'm really happy for Joni and Matt on the new marriage. It was really great to see two people so happy. You wouldn't think that amount of happiness would be possible or perhaps even legal given the state of most of the people that exist here on this large sattelite called Earth. I smile on occassion, I'm just not overcome with joy. I don't think I'm supposed to be simply overflowing all the time though; that might be just a little bit weird.
I'm not sad either. I'm getting out of school in December and I'm excited about that and all of the possibilities and challenges that it is going to bring. I do miss my girlfriend and the first couple of months of college will more than likely be a little bit challenging to get used to new schedules for both of us. It won't be hard or bad, and I'm not dreading it at all, just something that I'm aware of. I am wondering where all of my excitement went about my worship. I think that perhaps I am getting another course on what worship actually is. It is a constant thing, not a feeling or an emotion, not a song, nor a service. I guess just like in my relationship with my girlfriend, it's not always "woo hoo! yeah! we are super happy and so in love!!" We would probably get on each other's nerves. I guess God isn't that way either. To truly be his friend it would seem that there are times that we would just be hanging out and talking about things in general, nothing super exciting, just things. But then one might say, "it is God, shouldn't all things he says be super exciting?"...More to come...See you in the clouds...