Everything glorious...

I'm really not even sure why I chose that title. Perhaps it is the first thing that came to my mind or perhaps it is because it is the first song on the set list. Yes, the first song from the set list that has been toiled over from last night into the late morning. As some may know, our drummer is out of town due to his marriage and honeymoon, this puts us playing without him. Not a problem, but a situation nonetheless. I have come to realize that MattMc does bring some since of stability to the chaotic system that we use as a band. I also realize that stress that being responsible for the money brings him...Matt, I'm sorry. Last night we set up at First West and we were trying to figure out our set list for the follwing night (tonight). Well, the theme of this segment has been "Block Party". I thought that since when people get together at parties and pull out acoustic guitars and play old songs, that it would be cool to do something similar at the service tonight. We were all playing acoustic so we could all go old school praise and worship. Our set list was...1:Everything Glorious, 2: Hey Oh, 3: Meet With Me, and 4: Open the Eyes of My Heart. Matt Mc would have died at the thought of all of that; and still probably will when he reads this. After we left the church I got this feeling that something was not exactly right about the set list. It just didn't go. Well, it got worse when I got up this morning and it wouldn't leave my mind. So I mentioned it to the guys and Tim said he felt the same way last night. Draughn, said the usual "why?" and then went along with whatever worked...like usual. Gwin said it was my idea, asked why I didn't feel bad about it last night, and then we finally agreed on a new set list 1: Everything Glorious, 2: Holy is the Lord, 3: True Friend, 4: Open the Eyes. It was said jokingly, "Ya'll start talking to God before Wednesday from now on...lol." Ok?
Making a set list is flat out painful. I wonder if other bands go through such battle and pain and strife and agony and blood and sweat and tears to simply figure out the few songs that they will be playing that night to hopefully lead God's people into his presence. Surely there is some art to it. I know that it should be thought out and studied because in a way, it is just like a preacher's sermon outline. It tells us a musicians and worship leaders what we will be talking/singing about. Perhaps we as a band don't take it seriously enough. I'm not sure. Maybe we shouldn't play just because it is cool, but because it actually holds some real meaning to us and hopefully to others. Still growing...See you in the clouds...

The mysterious bluhs...

Bluh (pronounced like it's spelled) : The weird feeling when you don't feel joyous, yet not sad
and you feel gross in a clean sort of way.

So, that's me at this point in time. I have the Mysterious Bluhs. I'm not sad, not at all. I'm just plain I guess you might say. It's fun hanging out with everyone, which is cool. Things are great and I'm really happy for Joni and Matt on the new marriage. It was really great to see two people so happy. You wouldn't think that amount of happiness would be possible or perhaps even legal given the state of most of the people that exist here on this large sattelite called Earth. I smile on occassion, I'm just not overcome with joy. I don't think I'm supposed to be simply overflowing all the time though; that might be just a little bit weird.
I'm not sad either. I'm getting out of school in December and I'm excited about that and all of the possibilities and challenges that it is going to bring. I do miss my girlfriend and the first couple of months of college will more than likely be a little bit challenging to get used to new schedules for both of us. It won't be hard or bad, and I'm not dreading it at all, just something that I'm aware of. I am wondering where all of my excitement went about my worship. I think that perhaps I am getting another course on what worship actually is. It is a constant thing, not a feeling or an emotion, not a song, nor a service. I guess just like in my relationship with my girlfriend, it's not always "woo hoo! yeah! we are super happy and so in love!!" We would probably get on each other's nerves. I guess God isn't that way either. To truly be his friend it would seem that there are times that we would just be hanging out and talking about things in general, nothing super exciting, just things. But then one might say, "it is God, shouldn't all things he says be super exciting?"...More to come...See you in the clouds...