Just some mindless ramblings...

You know there are certain times in a man’s life when he begins to ask himself this question; what am I here for? On one hand I have to say, I know the reason for my existence and I know what it is that I have been called to do. On the other, I ask myself, if this is what I am supposed to be doing then why can’t I seem to do it successfully?
I mean really, I try and I try each and every day to do the “right” thing and still I find myself falling even less than short of what it is that I am shooting for. I guess I try to be perfect, I try to satisfy everyone and most of all myself and God. I try to save everyone and I know that with all of the powers that I have, I can’t. There is no way that I can be everywhere and do everything all the time. God is the only one who can do that. He is the supreme power and the super hero of super heroes, the warrior of warriors. How I long to be more like that.
I find myself falling to the same enemies more regularly than before. Well, I guess it is more regularly. I mean, I know that I fight harder than I used to and with more intensity so maybe that’s why when I do fall prey to them, it seems more devastating to me. A friend recently told me that I can’t be perfect and that I can’t be strong all of the time. This is true. This friend said that I was stronger than most people that she knew. This really meant a lot to me. To be recognized and lifted up as a warrior in God’s army. I don’t want to boast so let me say, that God has brought me closer to Him and allowed me to see more of Him and realize what else is going on around us that we don’t see normally. Through his grace I have just become more aware of the enemies that torment us daily.
It is such an encouragement to know that I don’t have to fight all of these battles alone. I know that I have a friend and a fellow warrior (princess) fighting along side of me and praying for my daily and constantly. I know that I have Christ standing at my side and in front of me taking all of the blows that I should be taking and standing up for me and praying for me to the Father too.
Even with all of this, at times I still feel inadequate to fulfill my duties as a warrior in the Almighty’s army and to be the hero that this world so desperately needs. Maybe that is what I’m having to come to grips with now. Even with all of the abilities God has blessed me with, I still can’t do this on my own and I am inadequate. I can’t do it for my own glory or for my own reasons. I have to do it to glorify the Father. I have to seek His council and his love at all times. “He will not allow more temptation than you can handle to come to you. He will always provide you a way out of it.”…I Corinthians 10. I know that we are all stronger in Christ and that through Him we can do ANYTHING. Christ has given us a power and an authority through His name that makes us stronger than anything the enemy can throw at us. It’s time for a change in our strategy against the enemy. Father, give us strength to make it and to press on when we think that we are defeated and make your strength perfect in our weakness.
Now, with all of that said, let’s go and save the world….See you in the clouds…